Dear Sid,

Today would have been your 35th birthday and I'm sure we would have exchanged an email or a phone call depending on your location....but now, you're with the Church Triumphant and we're still part of the Church Militant until God's appointed time for a reunion. :) It's been about a year and a half since you were called to be with the Lord and we thank God for sustaining your family and friends thus far. We visited your mum in March this year and there was so much to learn from how your parents have handled issues related to your leaving earth. They are living out their Christian faith in admirable ways. They are a living testament of God's Grace, forgiveness, peace, and the fact that our beliefs inform our behaviour. They are being a source of comfort and encouragement to many, through the experiences of their own scars and aches. Your blog is still active, and that thrills me because it's almost always open on my devices. Howbeit, i don't how long the site would remain active so i resorted to creating a mini-journal named 'Nii Sai' in my Penzu journal for you. There, I have kept some of your blog entries. Today, what I added to that stack (a few minutes ago) is your entry titled 'Kabiosi - The God Who cannot be questioned'.
It's an interesting title to your memory. It is as though you knew we would have questions for God regarding the way He allowed you to exit earth.

"It seemed true in my own experience that God could not be questioned. Job did attempt to question Him but with little success.
As I reflected on the goings-on of my own life and the many times I was tempted to ask questions particularly the question “why,” I stopped to mock myself for such silly, petulant behavior. All my struggles, the “unique” circumstances that sometimes overwhelmed me and triggered questions about God’s love and His good intentions toward me began to fizzle away." - Nii Sai

Truly, God's love, methods and ways cannot be questioned. We miss you and sometimes wonder what you would have been up to by now, and what God would have accomplished through you by now...but the days for every individual are already penned by the Creator and we thank Him for giving us a friend like you.

"If I believe Him to be God and have thusly committed my way to Him living as much as He enables in a way that honours Him, why would I question His ways? He invites me to question His word and He is more than willing to help me understand. But if I questioned gravity would He change it just for me? Trust is what He requires.
The most difficult time is when you have no idea whether God is near or far. It is that phase when you are no longer certain whether He is really for you because He seems so against you. It is that time when tragedy and misfortune after misfortune and tragedy confront you that you despair of life. It is that time in life when the truth has cost you so much you wonder whether it is worth it. It is that time when you’ve given up on God and deliberately chosen a life of sin to spite Him but somewhere deep within, even amidst your deepest questions, you still long for and yearn for Him.
I know not what tragedies confront you, what doubts assail you and what has clouded your vision of God and His majesty and grandeur. Today when you sing that song remember that He is still in control and like He asked Job “…where were you…” " - Nii Sai

Till we meet again, I choose to place my trust, hope and confidence in the God Who cannot be questioned. The God you loved and served. The God Who uses your writings, poetic works and ultimately your entire span of life to speak to me and to many others. The Grand Weaver, Who alone tells our story the way He knits it out.

Kabiosi.

Selah.

In Christ,
Juliet.